Working too much - sleeping too little - and worrying all the time

I am tired tired tired!  I worked yesterday from 12-8pm and was home by 8:30.  The first half of my day was positively delightful as Princess Nibbles came to work with me.  She has asked, literally since Kindergarten, to come to work with me for a day.  So, we left the house at 10:45, made a deposit at MAC and stopped at Wa-Wa and were at work a full half-hour ahead of schedule.  The original plan was for her to leave at 2:00, but a little after 1 she begged to “stay later” and so GamerDude came and got her at 4:00 instead.

She sat next to me most of the day, when she wasn’t helping my supervisor hang decorations (for St. Patty’s Day and Easter) or collect paperwork, and we chatted inbetween my required phone calls.  Aside from that she colored, read, played computer solitare, and provided frequent hugs.  She wants to come back every Sunday and was disappointed when I explained that we can probably only do this once a month.  This told me more than anything else that she misses me with my “new” work schedule, though there’s really very little I can do to change that.

GamerDude came and picked Princess Nibbles up with Miss Angst in tow.  It was nice to have a dose of family love to break up my day as even my moody teenager gave me a hug and a kiss before leaving.  It was funny though, later in the evening, when my she asked me why I wasn’t a supervisor at work and didn’t they know how hard I worked, etc. etc.  As much as I hate my job, if my working it puts the seed in her head of the importance of a college degree it will be worth it.

Today is day #64 at work and I am simply put a whipped puppy.  If I could fall asleep earlier and then sleep through the night I’d be so much better off.  Lately I am going to bed after 11:30 and am asleep anywhere between 12 and 12:30 only to have my body wake me up at 5:00, more than an hour before my alarm is set to go off.  Most nights I also wake up once or twice in this 5 hour interval making my sleep even less restorative.

This is a pretty common insomnia pattern for me and unfortunately there is not much I can do about it until, eventually I manage to sleep through the night, thus breaking the cycle and allowing it to rectify itself.  I’ve tried the over-the-counter sleep aids.  I’ve tried the glass of wine before bed.  If I do not get a decent night’s sleep soon I’ll prob dose myself with Nyquil early Saturday evening and try for a full 8 hours of sleep into Sunday - the one day I do not have to set the alarm as I do not have to be at work until 12noon. 

Tomorrow is GamerDude’s radio nerve ablation and I have to say I am rather nervous about it.  This is a new procedure for us and I have no idea what to expect in terms of how he will feel afterwards.  We know enough from other procedures to expect a pain flare before we see any relief but other than that …. your guess is as good as mine.  Additionally, I have to ask MrGrumpy to take him so that I do not lose my precious overtime.  This of course fills me with guilt and makes me feel like a bad wife.

Keep us in your thoughts I will update you tomorrow night.

Mama Kelly

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