Womongathering I’m Coming to Find Myself

With Miss Artistic’s latest crisis Lady Rose & I had to talk seriously about whether or not to still go to Womongathering.  The long and short of it is that we are.  I have my hesitations because of not having much in the way of cell phone access once there.  I have my worries over the fact that I will be pretty much out of contact for 4 days.  GamerDude keeps telling me that I need this.  The last 10 years have been rough, the last 7 months have been beyond stressful.  I have lost myself and he wants his “real” wife back, I can’t say that I blame him.  I miss myself as well.

I have emailed the organizers to find out if there are any land-lines anywhere on the property.  I have a hard time accepting that I would be completely unreachable in the worst case type of scenarios. But, regardless of what their responce is there is no going back.  To “cancel” after tonight means no refunds.  I just have to hope and pray that we can get Miss Artistic through this crisis and keep her stable enough, long enough, to let me have this short period of respite.  I have to hope that being able to call home once a day, from the one spot that has cell access, will be enough.

We have yet to sit down and discuss what to bring, what time to leave, exactly how we’re organizing this at all.  That will come on 5/31 when she comes up for her semi-monthly visit.  But, insofar as the Gathering itself I am starting to get a little excited about the classes that are appearing on the schedule.  Now, there is a heavy focus on croning rites and as I have had a hysterectomy in many ways I do see myself as a crone in spite of not even being 40 yet.  I am certainly “mid-life”.  But, my aim is to reclaim my spirit, my hope, my faith.  I am most likely better off calling to the fruitfulness of the Mother instead of taking a step closer to accepting the eventuality of “old age”.  In that spirit I am considering:

Thursday night I think I would like to attend “Laughter to Feed Your Soul”

Friday I think I would like to attend a Tarot workshop, though there is a 2 hour toning workshop that appeals to the former choir geek still living inside me. 

Saturday I am tempted to do the Reiki 2 attunement though there is also a trancing practicum that makes me go Yum just a little.

Sunday I am drawn to a class title “Unstuck Your Sensual Self” and with my libido the way it is it seems a tailor-made way to end to experience and try and come back to my husband.

There seems to be a lot in the way of “down time” and as I am not planning on doing a lot in the way of shopping I plan to spend it doing a lot of journalling and hopefully also listening to music (as I hope to borrow my teenager’s MP3 player).  I need to use every minute of my time there to dig deep and uncover my true self as well as to gather the inner fortitude that it will take to hold on to it after I come back home.

May it go well!

Mama Kelly